Maddy: Life of a Beach Bum & Bikini Babe Wannabe!

Jonathan’s first song on Singapore Idol last nite..Gosh did he touched many hearts outta there..everyone who was at Indoor Stadium was just drooling and admiring him and each gal was just imagining that Jonathan was singing just for her…Well, i myself was totaly mesmerized by him..Chasing Cars was like one of my fav songs tho it was kinda sad..hearing him sing jus created some butterflieys in my stomach…But well, he did not win…Hady won..Well, my colleagues did mentioned that Hady would win and Jon wont..So is this another one of those last season Spore Idol…Read somewhere that going into the finals with remaining two guys..one malay and one chinese and the malay will win..this practically just has history repeats itself..So wat went wrong? Wont deny that Hady was good and Jon was good as well..Well, if you could make it into the finals, it just jolly well meant something yea?

But i wonder..how would this Spore Idol last? For instance, Taufik was at Indoor Stadium last nite and he sorta walked past me with escorts..was wondering the familiarity of this guy who just walked past and realized that he was Taufik..My fren who was there with me even commented who this guy was as he looked pretty familiar..secondly when he walked past, none of the audience actually took a second look at him..everyone was jus fussing over Hady and Jon..So wat does this tell us? This merely tell us that fame doesnt last..esp in Spore..It had just been a year since Taufik was crowned Spore Idol and jus by second season, he was forgotten..

Hmm..i guess this happened for the American Idol as well huh? Who outta there remember the first season right to the last season winners? LIke what they always say..there are tons of trees out there in a whole forest and you need to be that special tree to stand out..and in spore..its really small..so i guess it makes more sense to go overseas to carve a name for yourself and when you are back, you jus earn a huge amount of fame! Jus like what the other Chinese singers have done..

“I dont quite know..How to say…How i feel…Those three words…Are said too much…They’re not enough…” ~Chasing Cars~Snow Patrol~

Hmm..Will b attendin a weddin on Sat..one of my uni frens gettin married..Am happy for her since she’s movin towards the next phrase of life..:) However, am just gettin a bit worried..*sighs* Everyone will b bringin their other party along for the dinner so i guess durin dinner, most people will b sittin with their partners etc..sighs..and me? i will b all alone..hais..so is that a good thing or bad? seriously i dont really know…probably i’ll feel the pressure when the nite comes..ahaah..:P One of my uni frens actually commented to the bride-to-be to put those single ones in one table and then they can all mingle together..hey am totally against that man! imagine sittin thru a 2 hour dinner with complete strangers..well, not sayin i have never talk to strangers before but hey this is different..will b kinda strange man…-_- well, was jus complainin the situation to one of my gfs yday durin sentosa and she said that i could bring one of my guy frens along..hmm..tt sounds good but it could also meant that am introducing that guy fren as my bf..which could mean good or bad? secondly i would have to fork out ang pow for that guy somemore! Which guy will b a kind soul to volunteer for this task and pay for his own ang pow? ahaha..Seriously i dont think there will b such guy along unless he has a special motive man..ahaa..and i also dont wan the guy to feel totally out of space man..sighs..:( everyone will b talkin abt stuff etc and he will feel so out of place..and i also wan to b able to catch up with everyone and not worry abt the guy who’s sittin next to me who might b feelin lonely and out of place….-_- But agains…”Any nice guy outta there out for rent??” ahaha

* Oh yea..today i saw the mediacorp actor ben yeo at tanglin mall and he smiled at me!! ehehe..:P Just make my Mon blueesss go away..

Hmm..Will b attendin a weddin on Sat..one of my uni frens gettin married..Am happy for her since she’s movin towards the next phrase of life..:) However, am just gettin a bit worried..*sighs* Everyone will b bringin their other party along for the dinner so i guess durin dinner, most people will b sittin with their partners etc..sighs..and me? i will b all alone..hais..so is that a good thing or bad? seriously i dont really know…probably i’ll feel the pressure when the nite comes..ahaah..:P One of my uni frens actually commented to the bride-to-be to put those single ones in one table and then they can all mingle together..hey am totally against that man! imagine sittin thru a 2 hour dinner with complete strangers..well, not sayin i have never talk to strangers before but hey this is different..will b kinda strange man…-_- well, was jus complainin the situation to one of my gfs yday durin sentosa and she said that i could bring one of my guy frens along..hmm..tt sounds good but it could also meant that am introducing that guy fren as my bf..which could mean good or bad? secondly i would have to fork out ang pow for that guy somemore! Which guy will b a kind soul to volunteer for this task and pay for his own ang pow? ahaha..Seriously i dont think there will b such guy along unless he has a special motive man..ahaa..and i also dont wan the guy to feel totally out of space man..sighs..:( everyone will b talkin abt stuff etc and he will feel so out of place..and i also wan to b able to catch up with everyone and not worry abt the guy who’s sittin next to me who might b feelin lonely and out of place….-_- Jus see how the night goes..

* Oh yea..today i saw ben yeo at tanglin mall and he smiled at me!! ehehe..:P Just make my Mon blueesss go away..

Was jus commenting abt bday etc the other day..woke up the next mornin and it suddenly dawned on me on what did i remember from my last bday? Well, besides the romantic stuff that one dear sweet guy fren of mine did..another thing was a sweet little pressie given by my ex..a little doggie who has somehow entered into my life and taken a wonderful place in my heart……Still remember the first time i laid my eyes on him..wen around searchin for a JRT at his fren’s pet shop but couldnt find one…coz the last one in his shop was sold…recommended us a contact that someone was sellin a baby JRT..wen to somewhere in Sengkang..and thats where i saw him..lookin so tiny…innocently sweet…..tts when i fell in love with him and determined to take him home…:) And thats how that little baby became baby in my family..:)

Sweet Little Thing..

Monster NOW!

Was just thinkin to myself when i was on the train jus now..gosh..my bday is coming in a mth’s time and very soon, i will be a year older..So what have i achieved so far that i am proud of? Let me see…Well, i have been in my first job for at least 2 years now..and probably runnin…as compared to the rest of my frens, i guess i am the one who has been in the marathon for the longest time ever..so is that a good thing or not? Well am enjoyin what am doing so i guess no harm in stayin in it further more..:P We are going to have our bi-annual conference next year and it is scheduled to be held in March 2007..J commented “Hey..hopefully you are still around to help out..” ahah..that is kinda funny..and i commented that that is the funniest thing i have heard..-_-

So going to grow a year older..shucks..that kinda brings memories of what happened in my last bday..Durin my last bday..a really sweet guy fren of mine actually bought a small little slice of cake and waited for me under my void deck..a really sweet gesture as i didnt quite expect it…Where was i? Hmm..i think i was workin late or something and he actually called me to ask me where i was..told him that i’m on my way home etc and he kinda hung up on me unexpectedly..at the moment, seriously i think that he was being really rude..i was just talkin half way and he just hung up on me..after a while, he called me back and asked me where i was..so told him that i was near home etc..and when i reached my void deck..i heard a distinct voice calling me…Maddy…I was on the phone, receiving another bday wish from another dear fren of mine who was in Thailand at that time..Another sweet gesture of calling me when he was based in Thailand..:) And there that guy was..with a little slice of cake wanted to celebrate my bday with me..gosh..at tat time, i was taken aback and shocked..but found the gesture really sweet…no one guy has done that for me..not even my bf of a few years back then..gosh..was i touched..

However, you might have thot that we have gotten together right after that sweet gesture? Well, apparently not..i did not really fancy him much so..oh well, we dint really work out..was dating for a while but nothing really works out..

But hey, that gesture really struck me as that was the only first thing that came to my mind when i thought abt my bday last year..hehe..:) Oh well, i kinda lost contact with him..and well, a romantic guy like him wouldnt have lacked any gals that he like..:)

So this year..wat can i expect? well, i dont think i can expect any guy waiting under my void deck with a cake hoping to celebrate my bday with me..thats kinda drama but hey, some guys are really romantic one leh..:) And since this year, it will be on a Friday..i guess i will be outta partyin and celebrating my bday in a BIG WAY!! Ehehe..:) Bday wishes? hmm..was jus thinking of compilin a bday wish list so that my frens who had been big fans of my blog would know wat i want!!! ahah

Apple..was having some web server training at 3rd storey today and came across the Apple website from N’s computer..this prompted me to go take a look during my free time..hence havin some free time at hand, i went to Apple’s site and checked out some of the improved things that they have..

Guess what? They have relaunched the IPOD Nano..this time with more colors! They come in green, blue, pink, black and silver..woo..they are just so pretty..however, they are not available in the Spore market yet..only in the States..in addition, for IPOD Shuffle, they have also came out with another version..something which is smaller and comes in a clip format..kinda different from the normal one..or the one that i’m having..but what really caught my eye was the nano..wooss..so pretty!! all the colors are so nice!! Well, i wanted to buy a nano when it first came out..the glossy white and black just caught my eye and was thinking if i do get one, i would buy the glossy black one..however, i gave up the idea due to my owing a shuffle already before the nano came out..technology..they are always like that..thot of selling my shuffle..and get the nano..but i do not like the glossy surface..scratches are evident so thats not nice..when video came out, i wanted to get a video! But the price of it being $500++ wasnt too pleasing to my pocket and hence..decided to stick to my old and trusty shuffle..:0 Whcih has been a good company really..serves as a mp3 player and a thumbdrive as well..:) And being so small, it just fits into my party bag..:)

Today was having packed lunch with two of my colleagues..J & N..Usual..Nothing new..we were just sharing our usual lunchtime gossip..N then mentioned about marriage as she was getting married and we started talking abt blogs..N commented that she was not going to continue with her blog anymore as she doesnt have time to do it these days..Nowadays, her blog would jus be 2 or 3 liners…I being the curious one asked her why…afterall she was the one who introduced me to bloggin 2 years ago and got me started on blogspot..however, all the html thingy jus drives me crazy and work just kinda pile up on me..after which i just gave up after some time..decided to opt for something simplier like this which has a template..ehehe..:P Back to what i was saying..N commented that having no time would mean abandoning her blog..J of a few years older than we are commented that she could not believe putting her personal life online for all to view..She just could not accept it..I just commented that you dont have to share all parts of your life..you can just share what you want..But she just commented that she could not reveal her personal life to strangers..that is just too private..

So when did this whole bloggin thing comes abt? Everyone of us keeps a form of diary or so..i still remember having that diary of mine sitting somewhere in the dark corner of my drawer..-_-..still remember those days where i even addressed my diary entry as sorta of a letter to someone..whenever i feel down..whenever i have fights with my ex-bfs..when things just dont work for me or simply just brood in my mind..somehow these days, all these thots became public! Public on the world wide web where simply anyone around the globe could read what is troubling that person or what happened in that person’s life..So is this a good thing or not? Probably if you are pissed off with your bf and he is absolutely clueless about it..then blog would be another means for him to know it..i have heard of a story where a bf actually din know abt him pissing his gf off..but after reading her blog..he finally realizes that he did something wrong that pissed his gf off..But hey this would only work if the other party knows abt the blog addy! If he doesnt know..then this blog thingy would be useless…ahhaa..But somehow bloggin has brought abt flame for some peeps! Like the two ladies who became famous bcos of their blogs..seriously i have no idea of their names as aint a big fan of theirs..ehehe..:P But N did showed me once of this Ah Beng blog which is simply hilarious..all the vulgarities, broken english and singaporean stuff that he talked abt..it is just so hilarious!

Well, blogging would have its way of entering someone’s life..Somehow i believe you, as the blogger, have the right to choose what you wish to share with the world and what’s not..:)

Relationships..are they meant to be long lasting or for a short term? Friends around me are getting hitched and i am receiving invitations lots, particuarly true for this second half of the year..3 of my best uni frens are gettin hitched later this year and i will be attending one very shortly in 2 weeks’ time..But i also have frens around me whom are breaking up with their other half after many many years together…

So wat are relationships? Are they meant to be long lasting where you get married and live happily ever after? Well, even if its not happily ever after, it will be forever..till death do us apart..But is it even true these days? I heard of stories where things just dint work out after like 5 or 10 years and then the couple just break from each other..its kinda heart-breaking to hear such news since it meant that a whole of 5 or 10 years have been wasted for both parties..I guess its pretty okay for the male species since they always said that men are always the most charming when they are in their thirties and a career going on for them..How abt women? when they reach 30, peeps will say that they have already passed the “expiry date” and very soon, they will be left on the shelf..Is that even true for women these days? I guess not as most women will think so..Who needs men these days while women are gettin to be more independent and mind of their own..But anyways, its kinda sad to hear that things dont work out..and this is especially worse if the relationships have been dragged forever and both parties decided to end it only like 10 years lateR? To me, i find that it is better to end it early than to let it dragged forerver and then 10 years have passed and you realize that “Hey she/he is not the one for me! So time for me to move on to someone new..”

Secondly, same as a crush..how do you keep that person interested in you forever and ever..and that day of breaking up after 10 years will neva come? Thats a bit tough..How do you keep the flame burning…How do you keep the passion between both of you growing stronger and stronger..How do you find things to do to keep the relationship interesting? Is there an answer to all these? Staying long together as a dating couple might be good since peeps always say that it will make both parties understand each other better..but understanding each other too much..would that help in the marriage? Aint that part supposed to be discovered after marriage or while dating? *ponders*

Knowing a little is good but knowing too much might be excessive for the relationship..Certain parts are just meant to be known after marriage..Now i know why the folks outta there are taking such a different view, opinion and perspective twds relationships..probably to them these days, commitments are just secondary..what is important is how you feel at that exact moment which defines everything…

I remember once asking one of my colleagues who got married at a tender age..”How do you know you are ready for marriage?” “Hmm..well, you just sorta know it..the time comes when you are so in love with each other and know that you would want to take the next step with him..” She said..At that time, i was pondering to myself..oh so that is when you know you are ready for marriage..but wat happened if you have already passed that phrase? Does that spell trouble for your relationship? Hah! I guess it does..

So once again, the brooding question is “How do you keep the person interested in you forever and ever?” or rather..”How do you keep the relationship going on..”

Guys guys guys..if you want to stare, why cant you do it discreetly?! As i was saying..was at sentosa with one of my gfs..and happened that it was raining and we are kinda like stuck at the toilet area..seems pretty crowded since it was raining heavily and everyone was just waitin for the rain to be smaller or stop…and while we were just standing there waiting for the rain to be smaller..somehow two of us caught a bunch of guys starin! One of them seems kinda familiar..as in like i have seen him somewhere or probably i have known him from somewhere..but somehow i just cant remember or he just has a common face that i see everywhere..Or probably i have met him when he has hair and now with his crew cut, i just cant recognize him! heh..

After that, they have left the premise and we were still there..However, we met them again at the tram stop while waitin for the tram to come pick all of us up to go to the bus interchange..And while we are just standin there waitin for the tram, somehow i felt that two of us are like being stared at from the back..can feel eyes roaming around us..

Guys, why cant you just stare at gals discreetly? Somehow it gets kinda weird and funny for the gal if you are staring at her so hard..If you stare at her so hard, do u think she will not notice it? Or do you think shes a robot and will just let you stare? if you want to talk to her or something ,just go up to her..dunc stare at her till she feels so uncomfortable simply standing there..And if you do not have the guts to go up to her, just smile at her if she ever looks in your direction and not stare at her back..and if you think that shes familiar, then go up to her and ask her..dont stare! The worst that you can do is to stare at her till she feels so uncomfortable! One stare is enough..not constant stares!!

And guys, if you want to know a gal, please go up to her when shes around you..and not say bye or something when she is about to leave your premise..By saying bye softly, do you think she will hear? or if she does hear you, what do you expect her to do? Say bye to you or come up to you and ask, “hey did you say bye to me?” So u think that gals are more courageous than guys? And if she does turn back and look at you in surprise or like hmm..then what do you do? stare at her back in blank or just look at her…somehow the saying bye courage has disappeared when she turned and looked at you..or you could get your fren to look back at her..with the two of you jus standing there and looking…with a sense of loss? -_-

Spent a day in Sentosa today and had some really chilling time there..:) Glad that i went..was feelin damn sian the whole of yday..:( Got a hangover from the previous nite of ButterFactory..gosh..was totally wasted…too much alcohol in my body! ehhe..:P and the losing of my mobile phone..Gosh that totally sucks! Everyone whos messaging me, i would ask..who’s that? Now that would totally suck..Hey if you msg me and i ask you “Who you are?” please do not think that i have forgotten abt you..it merely meant that i have lost my phone and my contacts..

Hmm..was just spending the whole of today talkin to a gf of mine..We were just discussin on how guys these days treat relationships so lightly and stuff..She was just commenting that these days, people are just worried about commitment and hence the latter of player around etc..or probably its jus our luck to meet them..Some guys are just not what they seem like…They can tell you one thing and when they turn around, they are actually someone else..or they just behave in a way that you dont normally see them behaving in front of you..

So how do you actually defining liking someone? Does falling in love at first sight works these days? Apparently not i guess..It would b more of a crush rather than liking? Or is liking and crush the same?hmmm..*ponders* I guess crush will be like for a really short time and when you meet someone new, your crush just disappears and you kinda like the new person that you meet? As for like, i guess its for a longer time than crush..and even when you meet someone new, your feelings will probably float to the new person for a while..but then it somehow returns back to the one that you like..But i guess these days, there are more crushes than likes..So, these days, would be more like “hey I like you..” or “hey i am havin a crush on you and i’m not sure whether next week i will still have the crush on you?” I guess the trick these days will be to keep the person interested in you and not let his/her feelings wonder to someone else..But the question now is..”How do you keep the person interested in you???”

Two of us were just sharing today on the kind of guys that we like and how we like our men to be dressed..We do have differing opinions on how we like our men to be dressed but one thing that both of us agreed on was..how nice it will b to find someone to share the same likes as you..hobbies..enjoy doing the same things that you do..But firstly finding that someone will be the first obstacle that you have to get thru..How do you find someone who share what you like doing? How do you find someone who like to go to Sentosa with you to get some sun? How do you find someone to go club with you? How do you find someone who can dance with you? How do you..I guess the How questions are endless..

I do agree with her when she mentioned about self-discipline rather than being controlled..We, the female species these days, like our own freedom and we do not like to be told of what not to do and what to do..rather we prefer to exercise some self-discipline on ourselves..Telling us not to club as and when you like it is wrong..rather we would prefer not to club this week on our own discretion..and not bcos you told us so..