Maddy: Life of a Beach Bum & Bikini Babe Wannabe!

For those whom had been smsing me over the past week and days would probably know that i am currently busy with some c**k plan..So am just takin a breather off that at the moment..Pretty much done with the ppt and budget but just need to look through to see if had missed out anything..

On Monday, heard a really..well i dont know whether to say that it is a good or bad news to me..but somehow i just see more bad than good in this piece of news..:(

Before i got together with my B, he did mention to me that he had requested for some Taiwan posting in the coming year which is 2007 but not confirmed yet since it is only a request..But guess what? On monday, he called me when i was in the cab (okay, i was extremely late for work that i cant take train to go to work) and told me that he was selected to go for the Taiwan posting..well this means that he would be away in Taiwan for 14mths! Hmm..aint sure whether i am happy or sad about tt..Seriously i am happy for him that he would be going there since he did mention to me before that it is a really good opportunity for him to advance in his careeer..but sad coz he would be away from me and aint really sure what would really happen during these 14 mths?

After that, we had a couple of smses here and there and he sorta told me to keep my options open while hes away in Taiwan? Well, what does he mean by that? A break-up right? Well, i was so sad that i actually held my tears back but when he said this, i just immediately broke down in the office toilet! Gosh..i had no choice but to tell J about it coz i just cant really take it..Am really sad that he said this since it meant that he was not even willing to give it a try even though i told him that i am willing to wait for him..So he kept messaging me and calling me but i just refused to pick up the calls, knowing that i would defintely cry over the line..no way am i going to cry in front of him..

So at nite, we met up and had a short talk on this matter and he told me his side that he just dint want me to be all alone and so he told me to keep my options open..well if he asked me to keep my options open, this would just simply mean that he would also keep his open right? And secondly i was also pissed when he told me that he might be extending another 6 months to 2 years if he can get used to the life in Taiwan..OMG! can you believe he even said that? This just sorta means to me that he doesnt even care about us that he wants to extend his posting to 2 years instead of 14mths! Not even intending to come back to see me! :(( I just feel so sad..

A part of me wans him to go since it is for the good of his career and knowing how much he would earn over there as compared to here just makes me soften..Yet another part of me is saying no..coz we neva know how things will work out and right now, i just like him too much that i am unable to let him go..:(( I can still remember at that moment when i was crying in the toilet, there was a distinct pain in my heart that is so painful that i cant bear it…Its just like the pain when i found out what my ex did to me..that same exact pain which is so painful…

However, i would not want to be so selfish as to askin him to stay just because of me..i dont want him to come blaming me in future if he makes that decision to stay with me..I know long distances can work in some instances as i have some frens who are doing this now..One is in UK studying while the other is in China working..But somehow i just tend to have insecurities since there are just so many nice girls in Taiwan…:( What should i do? I dont really know seriously…Would he stay if i ask him to? I dont really think so since he is kinda a stubborn guy but i just feel so sad…Even right now, i can feel the slight pain in my heart…:~(

Baby would you stay if i ask you to?

Been wanting to blog this since morning but was kinda busy with work etc..*sighs*..anyways, perks of my job?! Well, yday i went to do some site inspection visits to some hotels for my upcoming company’s conference in April….I didnt really get to relax or anything and instead i was so tired after a whole afternoon of travelling to and fro! After i reached home at night, wanted to do my work but dint in the end coz was so god damn tireds..my legs were aching…:(

But hey Ritz Carlton was one of those that really caught my eye! Not mentioning about the sales manager who was handling my account was really nice and sweet…and the staff there were pretty good-looking as well!! ahaha..:P But the room..woah! They always said that the view at Ritz was amazing and hey it is! It was simply breath-taking..i was taken to the room that faces the kallang river which is known as the Kallang Bay View and it was simply breath-takin! The first thing i noticed was the view when i entered the room! And the bathroom facing the view was awesome as well!! Hmm..there’s this cheaper category which is the Marina Bay View which faces Esplanade and Shenton Way which wasnt too bad as well..Gosh! It was simply magnificent!
Hmm..if you are thinkin of a romantic place to go to during this V-Day..hey this is the place man! I bet at night, the view is even beta!!

Okay..havent been writing in my blog for a long while as i had been busy with work over the past few weeks..*sighs*..Things aint looking too well for me either last week as my granny passed away..well, i wasnt really that close to her but kinda sad as well since i have lost someone related to me..And how life is so fragile….someone can just be gone like that…sighs..seriously i dint cry even when i went to visit her in the hospital…and over the past few days of the wake..however, tears just flowed down my face on the last day of her wake when we sent her on her “last journey”..somehow i just felt sad..and the tears just came…:(

Alrights, i got back to work and there aint looking too well as well..been workin till past 12 midnight since last week on some Corporate Planning in my office…or like what we always say in the office “C**k plan*? Seriously i dont really know..and have two HUGE i mean HUGE events coming up!…sighs..:(

* yawns*

Okay..i went Vivo on Sat to catch the movie, “Borat” with my B after a morning of some sun at Sentosa..Dint get much sun as the morning and early afternoon was kinda cloudy..so after our usual rountine at Sentosa and a bottle of Henekien and Ben’s and Jerry’s, we head back to the main land..Decided to purchase some food for my other baby in the house and went to E-Zone for some games..

So it was 7 plus and we went for the movie..well, as usual dint want to buy the expensive drinks at the counter, we bot our own at 7-11 which is located right outside the cineplex…My b wanted to put the drinks in the bag which has Ah B food in it and i told him not to since the ushers would check…Playing safe, i put the drinks in my bag..

As expected, they did check the bag and one stupid usher actually din allow us to bring the food in! It goes:
Usher: Can i check your bag pls?
B: Oh yes, you may..
U: May i know whats that?
B: They are dog food..
U: Dog food? Oh im sorry but you are not allowed to bring this in..
B: Huh? Why not? They are food for dogs..
U: I’m sorry but they are still food so you are not supposed to bring in..
B: But they are dog food wat..

Me standing at the side with my packet of popcorn in my hand was feelin kinda weird that how come we are not allowed to bring the dog food in..added in:

Me: Why cant we bring the dog food in? they are food for dogs wat..
U: Yes i know but they are still food so you cant bring in..
Me: WAT?! Cant bring in? well, how come? They are dog food and we are not dogs wat! so why cant we bring the food in?

Seeing that this whole situation is going to be a big thing, the stupid usher finally allowed us in..While walking away, i was still complainin to my B about the whole thing and i can hear the other ushers talking like what was going on..

Sitting down, i suddenly felt that i was being a bit harsh just now when telling the usher off and my B was saying “Ya man..you were like “wat? We are not dogs wat..” and i was so stunned and i just stared at you..” Ahaha..after the tense moment, both of us just broke into laughter and My B was so stunned with my that remark..

Gosh i myself was stunned too! But seriously i dont understand why we cant bring the food in..so seriously i just kinda said that comment out without filtering it in my brain..ehehe..:P Then i told my B, “Can you imagine suddenly we just took out one of the bags, tear it open and begin munching on the food inside?” Both of us just started laughing at our silly joke..

But seriously, i think the usher was kinda dumb when he stopped us for bringing the dog food in! But somehow we did manage to bring our own outside drinks in tho..ahaha

So what did i do durin Xmas eve and Ny eve? Well, i spent my Xmas eve and weekend in Genting..hmm..tons and tons of peeps there..lots of family made up of different nationalities..Msians, Sporeans, Indians, Ang Mohs, etc..was a quiet eve since there wasnt much partyin place to go to..Went for some drinks at a pub and boy i mus say that first time i went to a pub with soooo many uncles and aunties around lor! So decided to count down back in the room instead…

New Year Eve? Well, was spending at home with my beloved watchin dvd till wee hours of the nite…-_-..he decided not to go out since there will be tons of ppl around..but dear gal here was in teh mood for some partyin but bcos he dint want to go so we stayed at home instead…but he was complaining that we hadnt been clubbin for a while since Zouk Out last month and was supposed to go Zouk on Friday..but decided against it after some considerations…but hey we will hit the club agains! ehehe..:P

Guess it was kinda shockin for my mum since i will always be out and she expecing me to be out on NYE as well..was so shocked when i told her that i’m not going out! ahaha..even my foster mum who called the next day to ask me about my big celebration was shocked..and my frens too!! They are like, “what happened to our dear Maddy man??So guai these days??!!”

All i could do was…GRINZ..

Well, i gues the motivation would be my dear B…:)

Its the 2nd day of the new year..always talk about NY Resolutions..so have i made any this year? Well, not at all..LAst year, i made some..let me recall..one of them being to club less..well did i fulfill that? I guess i sorta did..i did club less..from 2 or 3 times weekly to once a week..ehehe..:P Met some really cool peeps during clubbin last year as well..like Yiting, Lynn, Deryx and some others as well…Also met some really not nice people…Well, so what are my resolutions this year? Hmm..havent really thought of them but i guess one of them would be to learn drivin! I want to learn driving so that i can drive my B car..ehehe..:P Well, that kinda gives me a motivation! eheh..:P And what else? Well, probably to pick up my graphic design course once again..Kinda took up the basic over the past year and time to upgrade myself further..

Happy New Year Everyone!