Am i supposed to be pissed?
Well jus realize that it had been a month long since i last posted anything on my blog! Gosh thats a really really long time..Guess i had been so busy with my Corporate Planning at work that i totally lost all the free time that i had to that..*sighs*
Anyways, at this very moment i am actually recuperating at home from my flu and fever..*sighs* So just thought i’ll come online for some complaints!! ahaha 
And at this very moment, my dear B is actually overseas for his exercies and would only be back like next month..Well, i do miss him tons and lots until i spoke to him on the phone yday..Hmm…somehow this morning i woke up not feeling that i miss him tons and lots anymroes? Remember when i mentioned about him going for his overseas stint for at least a year or so later this year? Well, he told me that this is actually more or less confirmed so he would be going…Insecurities? Well you can said that i do have some of these right now..would our relationship work out with the long distance thingy in mind? Seriously i dont really know..I do have faith but again, a single guy alone out there and especially in Taiwan where the mei meis there kinda throw themselves at Singaporean guys..well gal, do you think i would have security in mind?
And to make things worse, last nite he actually sorta told me something about missing his car etc..Apparently he is a member of the brand of car that he drives so he related this to me:
B: I was just talking to person X about the following “I already miss my baby”..
Person X: Wah..so fast already and you miss your gf..
B: Eh im not talking about my gf but my car..
Gosh! How would you feel when your Supposedly-to-b your baby said that? OMG..boy was i pissed so i told him “Oh..so someone misses the car than his gf huh? “Aiyoh…its not like that lah…you are a different kind of miss and i can talk to you mah..but i cant talk to my car..” Boy talk about covering yourself up with excuses..Excuse me, that totally fails as an excuse! To think that Miss Maddy here actually loses to a car?!! Goodness sake..i cant believe it..well, i know what they meant by car being a man’s baby etc but hey this is too much lor…and to think that i misses him so much over here and all he can think about is HIS CAR?!!! What the hell??!
And he has to make things worse by saying that he went to some pub in that location he was in and all the dancers etc..hey what is he trying to do man? I was a bit pissed man..and he told me that he didnt do anything..he was looking elsewhere when those gals were dancing next to him..ya rite..dont bull with me man..he thought i’m what? a little girl who just gotten himself a bf? Ya rite…from here, it just makes me come to the conclusion that all men are the same and to think that i even tame myself when i got attached to him? Less partying..heh! And he told me that he would not forget about me when he goes to Taiwan for his year long stint..seriously i began to doubt that, thinking that alll the temptations are outta there…
Faith? Trust? Commitment? Seriously i do have issues with them..Do they even exist these days? Maybe they do..and maybe they do exist in mine…just for me to discover as time goes by..
