Reality bites…
Just got down the phone with my B who is now on some overseas exercise…Well remember how i mentioned about being pissed with him earlier on? Somehow the pissness just wen away after i spoke to him and right now, i actually feel sad…:( He further mentioned to me about his overseas stint in Taiwan that it has been confirmed and he would be leaving in August..:( *Sob sob* Seriously i dont really know what will happen then..yesh i do have friends who have relationships that worked out when both parties are apart from each other but there was a promise made from both parties that both parties would stay committed to each other..as for us, well no such promise was made yet..not sure whether my b would want to make this promise since he did tel me “to keep my options open” when he is away..so wat does this mean? This would only mean that no committment was made…and i know where he is comin from since we never know what would happen but seriously if a committment was made, there would be some kind of results yah?
He is only gone for like what 4 days and i am already missing him..i guess i have grown so attached to him now which could only spell trouble…if he is really gone for a year long, what would things become? Seriously i dont really know..I really wonder what is the winning formula for my frens who have maintained the long distance relationship till they got married….I really wonder..
I dont really know what would become of us…maybe i should give it up now to save myself from all the pain that would come in due time…I dont wish to go thru that pain yet again..Once is enuff for me…Giving it up earlier would make the pain less painful as compared….But again, if you dont try, how would you know that it would never work out? Maybe i should get him to promise some kind of committment so that mine and his time would not be wasted…
Whatever it is..my heart just aches now…it hurts like before…
