Maddy: Life of a Beach Bum & Bikini Babe Wannabe!

2 years..it is confirmed..my dear B will be away for 2 years for his Taiwan posting..:( *Sighs* That kinda sucks..initially both of us thought that it would only be 14 otr 16 mths but who knows? For Taiwan posting, min is 2 years..*sighs* Though i very much do not want him to go but i know that he has to go in order for his pay to increase to a level that he wants..and also it is something that he really wants to do..sorta already have this in mind way before he met him..

Like what Joya said, i managed to escape once back in last Dec, this Jan, March and June, i still did not manage to escape this time round..I guess it is something really meant to b..:(

Well, somehow the feelin which i felt now is very different from what i felt last year…Probably bcos we have been together for almost a year now? So i kinda understand him more and the insecurities are sorta lesser now..If you ask me whether i trust him, hey seriously i do trust him but somehow there’s also a part of me that dunch quite trust him..Well, he is like so far away from me and if he is to do something bad over there, i wouldnt even know if he doesnt tell me anything..i guess long-distance is really based on trust and trust is really impt..

He gets to come back like 3 times over these 2 years…so it just meant that he would b back every half-year..however, he doesnt get to come back during festive season so i can forget abt seeing him here..but hey am thinking of paying him visits every now and then..to see him and also “spy” on him..ahaha..:P However, he is not based in Taipei, but some woo loo part of Taiwan which is not accessible to me..so even if i want to visit him, i would have to arrange with him to meet in Taipei lor..He did promise me that he’ll be a good boy in Taiwan..Again temptations are everywhere so…??

Right now, i just feel that 2 years would pass very fast but again, it is a long time..so i also dunch know how i really feel..he’s leaving in mid-Dec so luckily it is after our 1 year anniversary! So the next time i’ll see him would be in June next year? And that would be after my probation in my new job lor..hee hee ;P So i can take leave and spend the time hes back in town..:)

About our future? Seriously i dont really know..right now am willing to wait for him but me aint too sure abt him..am worried if i wait, and when the time comes, and things are really different at the end, i would b at a loss…:( I cant make him promise anything…so i guess its a gamble for me..a gamble to see if it is really worth it….

Penal Code, Section 300-something..Some debate in parliament this week about this law in the Penal Code about “two guys havin sex in public/pvt is illegal..” Think gays outta there wanna boycott this code, saying that we should not discrimmate etc but parliament stand is that Spore still being a conservative society, we need to have such code in place..

Seriously, i do not know what the big hoo-haa is about..Not say that if you have the stupid law in place, then gays outta there will not have sex…hey they are still having sex secretly lor..as if the gays are keeping their hands away from each other..so whether or not we have the law, it does not make a difference..and they are also showing their affections to each other openly also..have you ever been to Tanjong Pagar on Friday/Sat/Sun nites? well, they are like openly holding hands and snoggin each other..so seriously i dont know what the big deal is about..And Penal code..well, the name of the code already sounds so suggestive..not surprised that the gay law falls under this code..ahaha..

And last nite, i was bein so bored that i have decided to check out this website, www.fridae.com, which was a gay site..and its owner of the site actually petioned against this law..and boy arent they open about their sexual orientation! They even have a Personals page where you get to make frens of the same interest..something like MSN personals, except that this is for homosexuals, rather than two different sex..and boy are some of the guys so god-damn gorgeous! There was a distinct one whom left his blog addy there..and i went to check it out..OMG, his frens are also so god-damn gorgeous..and seriously i cant tell if his frens are gay..he has two best buds, one of them i can seriously tell hes gay but the other, i cant tell…he looks just so extremely normal…and so god damn gorgeous!

And while i was “drooling” over their boyish charms and hot bods and complaining to my B about how good-looking these guys are..he said that i should meet them in person..As he has some frens who are gay, he said that he would introduce them to me and i will be so shocked and surprised..But seriously, am jus so shocked that some of them are so god damn gorgeous and not gay looking! *sighs* Wat a waste…

Sighs..Just received news from my B that his Taiwan posting is more or less confirmed..*sighs*..That means that he will be leaving for Taiwan in mid-Dec and would be back only probably a year or plus later? That is so boring lor…:( Kinda attached to him now..and he has to leave..:( Well, when he was going to leave before when we first got started, i was worried that things would not work out for us..but now that he is leaving after we are attached for a year, its like we are so attached to each other that the feeling of being apart jus sucks..Kinda have to get used to not havin him around..which probably would be tuff initially i guess..:( *sighs*

Thinking of it now just sucks real big time! .The feelin of trust etc still sucks..Not too sure whether he would be doing something nasty bhind my back without me knowing since he is so far away! Trust..this is something which is important yet difficult…-_-..Well, situation is more or less confirmed now and i cant do anything at all..so basically i have to accept things as they are..

But seriously, how i wish i can drive now lor..my new job is like in Tuas and it would really help if i have a car to ferry me to work..hee hee..:P But then, i still do not have my license so that sucks..:( and just received news that he would be lending his car to his fren to drive..so basically that goes my guarantor..*sighs*

*Sighs* Really dont know what to do..have to accept the fact and reality i guess..

B.O.R.I.N.G

Alright it is 9th October and 4 more days to my B-Day!! ;P This year will be a special one since i will be celebrating with the Malays globally! Was just thinking abt my b-day wish and realized that i have yet to complete it with 10 wishes! ahah..:P

So peeps, if you still think that my listed are still way too expensive for yer, here goes..
* P.S it doesnt mean that the remaining ones which i have listed are going to be cheaper! ahaha..:P

TOP 10 WISHES FOR MISS MADDY’S BIRD-DAY!

1) Once again, a big b-day bash at some club with my frens! (Celebating it in HUGE way!) –> This will definitely be fulfilled since already informed my frens..hee hee ;P
Okay i have to think twice abt this for this year coz i went clubbing on Sat and totally got myself intoxicated with stomach flu the next day and following day..resulted in me missing work on Monday..but hey, it could probably b a good excuse to take MC again….;P

2) A pair of tixs to Zouk Out 2007! (The actual sale date of the tixs is actually Oct 18, which would be after my b-day but hey if you are goin to pass me my pressie after my b-day, this is the IDEAL gift!;P)

3) A really nice looking bikini (No paddin for me pls!) which would really flatter my figure..Hey i really need a new bikini for all those sun-tanning and for that Zouk Out which i would be attending..:)

4) A voucher from Topshop! I simply adores their clothes and it would really b good if i can get my hands on some free shoppin from there..-_-

5) Another wish that is same as last year’s.a bouqet of Gerberas delivered to my office! Dont think i would have much of this this year since my status is already different..hahha!

6) A rebonding voucher! My hair is growing long and would really need the voucher to go for some new haircut and rebonding!
7) BEP Tixs!! Initially thought that i wouldnt b able to go coz might b going to Beijing for the event but now i do not have to go anymores..might be a good thing that i have the tixs!! ;P
A wonderful new job aka change of working environment..Well, for those who might already known, this wish has been fulfilled..:) Not too sure if it will be a wonderful one but am just glad to hav a change of environment..Its jus gettin way too political and biased in my company!

9) A wonderful and sweet and romantic day with my B
10) Lastly, top priority on my list…My B wont get posted to anywhere in Taiwan, Thailand nor Brunei nor anywhere so that i can keep him always close by my side…

Will i get all my 10 wishes fulfilled? -_-

All i want for my b-day is…or rather are…. Oct 1, ‘07 10:20 AM
for Maddy’s network
Once again, it is time of the year..hee hee;P B-day wish time! YAY!! Hmm..every year am looking forward to my b-day…a special day for me to ask for pressies from all my frenz..ahaha..:P

Hmm..what do i wan for my b-day this year? Seriously havin a b-day list on yr blog which your frens visit is a good place! B-day list is a good thing coz it prevents your frens from cracking their brains on what to buy for you and it also saves you from gettin things that you dunch like..ahaha..:P

So here goes..

Will you fulfill my top 10 wishes? *ponders*

1) Once again, a big b-day bash at some club with my frens! (Celebating it in HUGE way!) –> This will definitely be fulfilled since already informed my frens..hee hee ;P

2) A pair of tixs to Zouk Out 2007! (The actual sale date of the tixs is actually Oct 18, which would be after my b-day but hey if you are goin to pass me my pressie after my b-day, this is the IDEAL gift!;P)

3) A really nice looking bikini (No paddin for me pls!) which would really flatter my figure..Hey i really need a new bikini for all those sun-tanning and for that Zouk Out which i would be attending..:)

4) A voucher from Topshop! I simply adores their clothes and it would really b good if i can get my hands on some free shoppin from there..-_-

5) Another wish that is same as last year’s.a bouqet of Gerberas delivered to my office! Dont think i would have much of this this year since my status is already different..hahha!

6) A rebonding voucher! My hair is growing long and would really need the voucher to go for some new haircut and rebonding!
7) hmmm….

Cant think of any others right now..shall update once i thought of the other 3..;)