2 Years..
2 years..it is confirmed..my dear B will be away for 2 years for his Taiwan posting..:( *Sighs* That kinda sucks..initially both of us thought that it would only be 14 otr 16 mths but who knows? For Taiwan posting, min is 2 years..*sighs* Though i very much do not want him to go but i know that he has to go in order for his pay to increase to a level that he wants..and also it is something that he really wants to do..sorta already have this in mind way before he met him..
Like what Joya said, i managed to escape once back in last Dec, this Jan, March and June, i still did not manage to escape this time round..I guess it is something really meant to b..:(
Well, somehow the feelin which i felt now is very different from what i felt last year…Probably bcos we have been together for almost a year now? So i kinda understand him more and the insecurities are sorta lesser now..If you ask me whether i trust him, hey seriously i do trust him but somehow there’s also a part of me that dunch quite trust him..Well, he is like so far away from me and if he is to do something bad over there, i wouldnt even know if he doesnt tell me anything..i guess long-distance is really based on trust and trust is really impt..
He gets to come back like 3 times over these 2 years…so it just meant that he would b back every half-year..however, he doesnt get to come back during festive season so i can forget abt seeing him here..but hey am thinking of paying him visits every now and then..to see him and also “spy” on him..ahaha..:P However, he is not based in Taipei, but some woo loo part of Taiwan which is not accessible to me..so even if i want to visit him, i would have to arrange with him to meet in Taipei lor..He did promise me that he’ll be a good boy in Taiwan..Again temptations are everywhere so…??
Right now, i just feel that 2 years would pass very fast but again, it is a long time..so i also dunch know how i really feel..he’s leaving in mid-Dec so luckily it is after our 1 year anniversary! 
So the next time i’ll see him would be in June next year? And that would be after my probation in my new job lor..hee hee ;P So i can take leave and spend the time hes back in town..:)
About our future? Seriously i dont really know..right now am willing to wait for him but me aint too sure abt him..am worried if i wait, and when the time comes, and things are really different at the end, i would b at a loss…:( I cant make him promise anything…so i guess its a gamble for me..a gamble to see if it is really worth it….
October 30th, 2007 at 1:48 pm
hmmmm…. Is not easy if both of ur have decided to have long distance relastionship.. True that both parter must have trust, understanding, concern and care for each other… the final result is either getting closer or break off.. To me it all depand on both parter wheater will take tis commitment seriously ma? U r consider soo lucky that ur b station at taipei.. no much differnt in timing, distnace.. onli things if same is that u will never know what he is doing at back of u.. there where trust n understand come in.. not time too much at tis moment, make full use of tis 1.5 month time to enjoy n understand each other more… it will help n u will “know” believe him or not when things happened… When time passed, naturally u will get the ans..
November 4th, 2007 at 6:38 am
Hey gal, thanks for the advice..yeah, he is stationed in Taiwan and i do agree with you on the commitment part and the trust which is very impt for long distance..and yes, you neva know what he is doing behind you back since you are not there physically to see or supervise him..seriously speaking at this time, i do not worry as much as before when we first started out and he said that he was going there..coz kinda know him much beta now as compared to the other time..:) and i do have faith in him and the trust..:)