Maddy: Life of a Beach Bum & Bikini Babe Wannabe!

Was just yday that it dawned on me that my B would leaving for Taiwan pretty soon for his 2 years stint..*sighs*..and its like wat? 3 weeks?! How time flies..It dinch quite register in me when he told me he was leaving for Taiwan in Dec but now, it is really near..

Hmm..how do i feel? Seriously i dont really know.I feel like i can survive and would treat everyday like normal..and looking forward to his return in 6 months’ time..However, i heard frens telling me that it is not easy though it seems really easy..especially when you feel sad or down..coz there wouldnt anyone physically here for you..so is it really that tuff?

Well, i dont really know..Right now am still feeling okay..though am beginning to feel a bit sad that my B would be leaving for his 2 years stint..A kind of uncertainty sets in my heart also..i dont really know what would happen..well, even though we said that we would wait for each other but somehow, i still feel a bit of uncertainity there..i dont know why..so dunch ask me..

Right now, i just wan to go get my license so that i have my B car with me…sorta like a guarantor and also transport for me to get to work..so pretty much cant wait for that to happen..

Sighs..he’s leaving soon and wondered how things would really are..Would he stay faithful to me? (Coz he kept saying that he cant promise me anything..so that kinda got me worried again) Would he betray my trust and do something funny behind my back? (Coz he would have the mentality - “I am in Taiwan wat..so whatever i do, she wouldnt know..” Okay..now that is a scary though..) WOuld he break my heart? Seriously i dont really know and just hope for the best..

Though we did talk about plans of us visiting each other after 6 months..where my probation would be over and i can take leave to fly to Taiwan to visit him..and he would be waiting for me in Taipei and we can fly back to Singapore together..Sounds really exciting of all these plans..Am feeling excited…:)

But jus mixed feelings right now…:( Am doing all my best right now to capture his heart before he leaves for Taiwan so at least am still remembered when hes there..:)

Hopefully my heart would not be broken again..

This week is my 3rd week @ work..and it has been a-ok so far..My supervisior went on leave for 2 weeks for his short vacation last Friday..so basically i run my Marcom department..hee hee..Not really lah..actually am kinda worried that there would b last minut thing and i would b so clueless as to where things etc are…So it had been alrights so far..nothing biggee yet..so am still keepin my fingers crossed..hee hee

Hmm..rem how i was complaining abt lunch last week? Well, things are much beta this week..I guess its as time goes by, things are gettin better..am getting along pretty well with my colleagues and sometimes i do talk rot with some of them..hee hee..And they are actually a really funny bunch..and they will always ask me out for lunch when they do..;) Though we still dunch have much to talk abt but there will always be one or two who would talk to me..:) And yday, B wasnt working so he came by and met me for lunch..and my colleagues actually wen fo lunch and were on their way out when one of them realized that i was not with them and the other one actually went back to office to ask me out for lunch..hee hee..am pretty surprised and was a bit touched when i heard that..hee hee..:) Nowadays they do talk a bit of cock with me so still not so bad..feel like am fittin in jus well
And these guys..though most of them are married..boy are they a scarcastic bunch of guys! They are in Sales so aint too shocked that they can tallk but boy..one of my colleagues whos in charge of the Marine industry was so bitchy and scarcastic! Often making scarcastic remarks to his customers and even our own colleagues over the phone! But boy was his phone conversation funny..always making the rest of us in the office laughed..hee hee..:P

Guess wat? Some of them even thought that i was like 19 or 22 years old?! ahah..so funny..one of them even thought that i was a temp and dinch even bothered to talk to me much..But right after he found out that i was a perm, he was much friendlier towards me..hee hee..so funny..hais..wonder whether it is a good thing to look young anot..haha..

But hey i feel like am jus fitting in

Yippeee…Tomorrow is TGIF! Finally! It has been official and tomorrow marks the end of my 2nd week @ my new work..Well, so far so good..and my new boss is really really nice..and we have stuff to talk about so not too bad..:)

My new colleagues are nice..but i think they are rather shy to talk to me and me also..dunch really know what to talk to them abt particularly the older ones..I go to lunch with the whole bunch of them and it mainly consists of me, 2 married older ladies, an older guy and a few other younger guys..my supervisior does not always eat lunch and sometimes he doesnt go with them..so at times i get invited to go to lunch with them but sometimes i dont..well i guess they already have their usual lunch group so adding me in would be kinda weird..

Okay seriously i dont quite enjoy lunch since there’s nothing much in common to talk about..so most of the time i would laugh at the jokes that some of the guys would make or sometimes i just get so lost with the names of ppl that they talked about..We dont have much to talk about firstly, i do not have anything in common with the 2 older gals..as they are married and have kids, i guess we dont really have a common ground to talk about..As for the older guy, he is nicer to me and talks to me but at times we also dont know what to talk about..Secondly, the younger guys would seem like beta option for me to talk to but i guess they are pretty shy so most of the times, they only talk to me when we are in a group and nothing much when they see me face-to-face..I guess they dont really talk to me otherwise they would be labelled as a buaya..ahah..So seriously i dont quite enjoy lunch..*sighs*

But well, i guess i have to try my best to mingle into the group if i wan to stay long in this job coz i kinda sit in the Marketing dept..and in big companies, most of the peeps would have lunch or stick to peeps in their own depts..So i cant really switch around with different peeps, unless i have lunch with the much much older ladies in the company which would also mean MORE POLITICS..no way man..so i guess i hav to try my very very best to mingle into this Marketing crowd..probably i can try my way with the younger guys first..ahah..:P

Just thought i pen this down before the motivation to do it dies…ahah..:P

Started my new job today and boy was i feelin excited and a bit afraid the nite before..but hey it wasnt so bad afterall..:)

6.30am
First day of work and i had to wake up early in future since work starts at 8am which is unlike my old place which is at 9am and sometimes i even get to work at 9.30am..hee hee..So was actually a bit excited that i woke up at 6am even before my alarm sounded!

7.30am
Called a cab to work coz it was raining heavily and also felt that the morning crowd on the bus would be too much for me to bear..coz there was only one bus that serviced the vicinity so expected the morning bus to b crowded and from then on, actually decided to take a cab to work in the morning so that i dont have to squeeze with the crowd..it was actually cheap to take cab to work since i stay in Jurong and work in Tuas but due to the morning peak fare and the call cab charges, it adds up to $12++..At that time, really told myself that i have to go get that license so that i can drive B car to work when he goes to Taiwan..but then, it would take at least 6 mths before the dream can be realized..;P

8.30am
Had my orientation with HR who briefed me everything on the company..a brief introduction on the organization structure and also introduced me briefly to the departments in the company..And she warned me abt the “wolves” in my department..ahah..as i belong to marketing dept, where majority of the guys who are sales are located, she actually warned me abt these guys..ahaha ;P

10am
WAs passed on to my supervisior, Ivan..who was a really nice guy..he briefed me on my job scope etc..KPIs and we chit-chatted a bit..introduced me to the department guys and ladies that i would be sittin at..after which, he actually bot me lunch at Rochester Park..woah..this is the first time where i ate at the much-facinated Rochester..had mexican cum north texas food and boy was i full..had talks during lunch and found out more abt the company and Ivan himself..:) A pretty nice guy i must say..

2pm - 5pm
Had a tour of the various plants and customers that my new company has..with Ivan introducing me to the relevant key persons that i would be working with and also the process and procedures involved..was it overwhelming but as new things are always fascintating, i am fascinated..particularly with the amt of work involved in getting the industrial gases ready for sale..

5.45pm
Ivan was actually very nice enuff to give me a lift to the MRT station even though it was not along his way home..and i totally appreciated it..:)

Overall, so far it wasnt so bad..everyone was like okay in the company and Ivan seems like a really nice boss..:) And though i already know the major projects that i have to do first, i do feel a bit of stress..And yes, there are a lot of guys in my deparment and it was very funny that Ivan actually made this comment to me “Single young females are very rare here..as most women who joined are married..” Ahha..u cant imagine how i felt when i heard this comment..strange..coz the HR exec who gave me the orientation also told me abt it..saying that there are quite a bit of eligible bachelors in the company..esp those young ones that you see and they are excited abt me joining..ahaha..mainly coz they havent had any young single female colleagues for so long..:P Strange but true i guess…but too bad, am taken..ahha..:P But i shall befren them so that at least i can get a free lift from them to the MRT station..:)

And boy am i shocked at the amount of budget that they have for Marketing programs etc..can you imagine that they change their brochures like every year..just bcos the manager does not like the look and feel? And their corporate video..well, they only use it for like a year and then the next year would be a new one..and the same goes for the website..gosh..am shocked..in my old company, a brochure developed could be used for YEARS! *faints* And they have administrators who would do admin work for you so basically you dont have to lift a finger..and the administrators are all in one room!

It is indeed different for a big company…oh well, tomorrow is my second day of work where i will officially start my work..am looking forward to it coz am given pretty much big projects to handle..:) Probation is 6 mths but hopefully i can strive during these 6 mths..and i feel that i would like my boss..:) He seems like a really nice guy..and my colleagues..well, so far they seem okay to me..ahaha..:)

Sometime earlier this week, i had a fight with my mum about the most ridiculous thing..First of all, it is about $, what else is new? Second, she is complainin abt my dear B..coz of my previous relationship with my ex which lasted for a whole of 6 years and we kinda broke up without her knowing the reason, i know that she is not happy..coz she somehow seems to think that he was the one that i was gettin married to and when things dinch work out the way she wanted, she was jus devasted..

Though i did know that she kept in touch with him secretly and him, playing mind games with her, knowing how well he would have knwn her for so long..so that kinda sucks..so secretly i know that both of my parents are making comparison of B with my ex..and somehow i know that they feel that B pales in comparison to my ex..but hey, every individual is different and my mum just doesnt seem to get that fact rite..and every individual has different upbringing so how do you xpect everyone to b the same? I still rem when i first dated my ex, she was also complainin abt him..saying that he having only O levels cert is unsuitable for me..and he coming from a broken family is also not suitable for me..but hey, she accepted him after some time..

Somehow she doesnt get the fact that every individual is different so she jolly well can stop comparing two of them! If they are the same, why the hell do i change a bf? was just thinking to myself that no matter which guy i would to get as my bf, she will still compare..so that doesnt make a difference..

WAs so pissed over the incident so msg my cousin to complain and she said that she would talk to my mum abt the comparison and somehow she went to tell her mum and her mum called mine just now and they had a tallk..and somehow the whole incident was brought up again..*sighs* And i hate it..it is at this very moment that i feel like moving out to stay on my own so as to avoid my mum! She is so super annoying seriously..why cant she just move on and get past the fact that me and my ex are no longer together so she can forget abt contacting him..i wondered wat the hell is she thinking abt?

And seriously i am the one who is gettin married and not her..so even if my B is really not as good as my ex (which seriously is not the case ), i am the one who made the decision and choice and i would bear the consequences for my life..so why the hell she want to step in and bother? My cuz said that i should only bring the guy whom am going to get married home and not all the guys i date..but hey, i thought i was goin to marry my ex but who knows that things do not turn out the way we want to..and if i do not bring the guy whom am dating, then my mum would worry and wonder who the hell am i seeing..so aint that a dilemna for me? Bring home also wrong,dont bring home also wrong..so tell me what you want?

Am really hoping one day both my parents would wake up to the idea that my ex and my B are very different individuals so “GROW UP and GET PAST THAT IDEA!”