The days are drawing near..
Was just yday that it dawned on me that my B would leaving for Taiwan pretty soon for his 2 years stint..*sighs*..and its like wat? 3 weeks?! How time flies..It dinch quite register in me when he told me he was leaving for Taiwan in Dec but now, it is really near..
Hmm..how do i feel? Seriously i dont really know.I feel like i can survive and would treat everyday like normal..and looking forward to his return in 6 months’ time..However, i heard frens telling me that it is not easy though it seems really easy..especially when you feel sad or down..coz there wouldnt anyone physically here for you..so is it really that tuff?
Well, i dont really know..Right now am still feeling okay..though am beginning to feel a bit sad that my B would be leaving for his 2 years stint..A kind of uncertainty sets in my heart also..i dont really know what would happen..well, even though we said that we would wait for each other but somehow, i still feel a bit of uncertainity there..i dont know why..so dunch ask me..
Right now, i just wan to go get my license so that i have my B car with me…sorta like a guarantor and also transport for me to get to work..so pretty much cant wait for that to happen..
Sighs..he’s leaving soon and wondered how things would really are..Would he stay faithful to me? (Coz he kept saying that he cant promise me anything..so that kinda got me worried again) Would he betray my trust and do something funny behind my back? (Coz he would have the mentality - “I am in Taiwan wat..so whatever i do, she wouldnt know..” Okay..now that is a scary though..) WOuld he break my heart? Seriously i dont really know and just hope for the best..
Though we did talk about plans of us visiting each other after 6 months..where my probation would be over and i can take leave to fly to Taiwan to visit him..and he would be waiting for me in Taipei and we can fly back to Singapore together..Sounds really exciting of all these plans..Am feeling excited…:)
But jus mixed feelings right now…:( Am doing all my best right now to capture his heart before he leaves for Taiwan so at least am still remembered when hes there..:)
Hopefully my heart would not be broken again..
November 21st, 2007 at 8:54 am
hey babe!
just saw ur post.. hmmm..hope ya doing ok and not too sad about ur bf’s taiwan stint..
anyways, taiwan not too far away. plus got phone & internet (his camp shd have right?).. plus got good old-fashioned letters.. so dunch worry too much k
*hugs*
December 15th, 2007 at 6:22 am
hmm…. hahahaha… jus be urself.. when time will happened it will b happened natural.. try not to force oppsit gender to do or to promise u anything.. it will not help… if he really wan to get another gf over there.. he will plan n hind fr u so jus b urself le… he will b at the losing end if he not wan u… hahaha… we can meet each other for confirm when u r free.. take care…